DAY 91

So I want to update the blog because I’ve been super busy but I don’t want to neglect this thing cause I do really enjoy adding to it and keeping up with this whole challenge. I really do love having a blog and don’t want to lose touch with it. So let me make some quick updates in a list.

1. I’m signing up for another market for March. Need to pound pound pound out some more crochet amigurumis before then! I made this super amazing pizza that I wanna sell for like $30, maybe $40… Not too sure yet. The table itself costs $75, so I need to cover that and then some BECAUSE…
2. I’m going to CANCUN! YAAAAAS!!! I am going with a group of 3 other women so far, and probably more who are waiting for another deal. It came out to $1200 for a week, so I’m pretty excited! I’ve never been to a tropical place before, EVER. I have always gone on trips where I learn about the history and culture, but this time, it’s just drinking, partying, and well… I’m giving myself a hall pass for MEHICO because guess what? It’s a vacation, which means if I get laid, I’m NEVER seeing that dude again. But who knows, it may not happen. I’m sharing a room with another girl who wouldn’t be down for that I’m sure, so I would have to get laid at the dude’s room, I’m thinking. I am only giving myself this hall pass because when I went to Chile a few years ago, I slept with this beautiful Chilean man, and it was the best experience, so I really want to make it a tradition to get laid on vacations when I’m single... If the opportunity arises.
3. My crush on a guy in my group of friends is getting worse. I’m having sexual fantasies about him. It’s getting baaaad. Trying to shut it down but every time I hang out with him, I get all silly and stupid. I could BAG that guy, you guys. But I won’t. Not yet.
4. I went to see a drag show with bio queens and… NOW I WANT TO BE A BIO QUEEN. I’m serious. There were a few really good bio queens there. One made the most money of the whole night and it was her FIRST time performing! They let anyone who wants to do it to do it! I need a lot of time to prepare. My friend B wants to do it too. I have started a playlist already. I have been getting really high (weed, obvi) lately and performing in front of my bathroom mirror. I thought about doing “What kind of man” by Florence and the Machine. Really dramatic, angry, expressive… OR “All by myself” by Celine Dion. Again, dramatic, maybe even teary, in like a fluffy long white robe probably. I dunno. So many ideas. I just need to prepare and get a Drag name. Still no ideas yet. My alter ego’s name is Ilana (kinda like Ilana from Broad City) but I feel like I could do something a little more draggy. The one bio queen’s name was Winona Ride-her. I liked that.
5. I am really fantasizing about making art again. Now that I’m really good at Adobe Animate, I think I could make some really beautiful artwork that actually animates. I found a bunch of vaporwave instagrams that have the most stunning artwork and I’m feeling inspired lately. I want to make a story, or even a full music video. But let’s start small first.. I want to make pixel art too. Might sound bad but actually, some people make really incredible art with pixels only. It’s pretty amazing.

Anyway... That’s all I got. I’m in the midst of writing a blog about one of my exes but I’m finding it painfully difficult to write. Not because I am sad, but because I actually am so far removed from that relationship, and him, that drudging it all up is more just exhausting than it is enjoyable. I’m SO over that one, it’s like... You couldn’t make me care any less. But the story is very interesting, so maybe I am just stuck on a less interesting part. I’ll get to it when I get to it, okay?!