DAY 200

I broke another rule… Fuck. I think I’ve broken all but one of my rules yet. So I joined a dating app. I don’t know why, but this huge huge part of me felt READY again. I’ve been obsessively listening to all these podcasts about dating and tips from really smart women and men and it just felt like I was ready to jump in again. Which app did I choose?

Heh... Two actually. Happn. It’s one where people can only find you if they’ve crossed paths with you. So if you’re in a coffee shop, and someone walks by that coffee shop and is also using the app, then you have a chance to match. It’s interesting so far but I haven’t had too many men to swipe through. And THEN…

Facebook dating. It’s disturbingly addictive. I’m having a hard time with it to be honest because I don’t have notifications turned on, so if I get a new message or a like, I need to open the app. And I’m opening it way too much. It’s stupid actually. But there’s a LOT of men on there. Here’s the problem with Facebook dating through… The effort men put in is fucking atrocious. I am WAY less likely to match someone on Facebook than I ever have been on Tinder because I think a lot of guys were pushed “Facebook dating” from their Facebook accounts and just quickly added it and moved on. They didn’t actually take it seriously. So it’s kinda brutal.

It’s always going to be brutal though. Dating is looking for a needle in a 1000 haystacks it feels like.

So what does this mean for my challenge? Well, I’m still going. I haven’t completely given up on it yet. It’s not like I’ve actually gone on a date yet or even found an interesting enough guy I wanted to talk to. It’s painful. I thought I would go “real” on them and put feminist, atheist, child-free poly girl in my bio, but it doesn’t seem to actually make a huge difference because dudes do NOT read your fucking bio anyway. A lot of them will actually unmatch me after they read the bio which is hilarious. But I cleaned it up and changed my bio to be more funny and sarcastic because I am the one who is actually making decisive thoughtful decisions about what I want. I am the one who has to be reeeeally picky, so the bio almost doesn’t feel important to dudes as much as their bios feel important to me. No one interesting yet.